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Can I clear something up for you guys? Just because I Love to speak on positivity and how I believe its a beautiful thing to live the life that I live, does not mean that i'm perfect. I went through hell and reached heaven. THATS IMPORTANT TO ME. When I speak on how I Love myself, im not "bragging" or any of that. Im simply expressing how its affected me as a person and how good God truly is. If you were in my shoes, you'd understand. So I dont want anyone to think that im the greatest nigga on Earth. Thats the last thing I want skipping through your mind. My girlfriend mentioned to me that I only focus on "the good things" and how I overcame obstacles and how i'm such a person now. Also that I dont write about my faults. For now, im enjoying the fact that I can share who I was and who I am. And who I am isnt perfect. I know, and she should know. The time for me to place my Happiness down and focus on my mistakes, will come. But it isnt going to happen now. Let me enjoy what I have going. Flaws will always exist, and you'll hear about them from me in a major way.

PEACE & LOVE

Rear-View Mirror Pt. 2

Me, doing what I Love.... Me bobbing my head to music I liked. Not me bobbing my head to a song everyone else liked, or thought was cool. LOL. It was a trip. MAN. I believe I really discovered who I am. And, I LOVE who I am. So do others. So do my family. But the guys I left behind, dont. Unfortunately<--For them. LOL. Its crazy to me. But I guess things happen for a reason. BACK to [appreciation]. I have, in a way, been forced to appreciate a lot in Life. This rope goes on. I wake up every morning thanking God for Blessing me with another day. And for the food I eat, the talents I acquire. And MANY more. I Love nature now! Call him THE NATURE BOY. Its beauty. God is the DOPEST artist EVER. You should check him out! LOL. Back then I thought those types of things were gay, or weird. Little did I know it would give me butterflies, in a good way. Or warm my heart. I appreciate things now. And I feel good about A LOT of things. Thinking positive is the key. Dont let me get started on positivity because you'd be drooling all over your keyboard in NO time. LOL. Yeeahhhhhh! This blog shit is coo'. Im feeling good. LOL. Okay back on track. Maan, I never knew music was so precious. I use to only appreciate gangsta rap. I've moved onto Rock, Electronic, Hip-Hop, Rap, Oldies, and the list goes! I've discovered A LOT from music now. All the elements are apart of me. I pay less attention to punch-lines really. I like to enjoy the way it sounds and just picture like, a scene from a movie in my head that could possibly match the sound. Its cool. Helps enhance my creativity when im drawing or writing. All these things, I show major appreciation for. So fuck trying to be cool. Be yourself, then the next thing you know, people will be calling you cool. It'll feel effortless because your being yourself. All of us have something special within ourselves. Let yourself shine. We dont need a duplicate of her, or him. We need you. The real you. So lace up your Nikes, and Just Do It.

Rear-View Mirror

Its a Tuesday June 9, 2009. Im sitting on my couch at home and im thinking. What should I do? AH! I have a marvelous idea. EXPRESS MYSELF (by typing). Hahahah...Here it goes. Through the years of my life, I have grown as an individual. I use to be a dude who had no self-respect, nor respect for others. I was, "headed in the WRONG direction". Like my mom use to say. You pretty much get the picture. I smoked, I drank, I robbed, I faught, I hated, Got locked up, I hurt, disobeyed. BUT, haha, heres the good part; I sat at my computer desk one special day-And realized...running beside these years, i've caused a lot of stress and disappointment. I've let a lot of my people down. Along with that, i've embarassed my family, my culture, and most of all myself. This experience wasnt just something that lasted for a few months, or a year. The mess was going on since a VERY early age. But God gave me the ability to realize, that it was time for a change. I know that sounds funny because of us black folks constantly talking about Barack Obama. Haha. But I mean, this was the most important and the smartest decision I could ever make. I told myself, I needed to stop this shit. It was getting old. I wanted to live a different life. It was still my life, but I was eager to make major adjustments. I attended church. Even before this beautiful moment. But I never really listened. After this realization occurred, I thought to myself, "Its time to present this to the church, and EXPRESS MYSELF to them. They'll understand". So the following Sunday, I let it be known. No holds barred. I wanted to change and I believe God gave me such a gift that I could show off. From that day on..I saw the world as a different place. Yeah...It was hard and tempting at times. A lot of times at that. But a wise man, can say no to temptation and take part in something beneficial. I let my homies know what was going on, and surprisingly, they didnt understand where I was coming from. They wanted me to, continue to follow. Instead of lead. Either that, or they didn't want me to stand out. If they understood or not, nothing was stopping this seed from sprouting. I was "A changed man". Niggas thought I was weird. Thats good though. I was weird because I was something they weren't use to. I was different. And thats EXACTLY, what I was aiming for. Look at me now, enjoying Life. Climbing out of that hole allowed me to learn to show life much appreciation. I learned and experienced a lot of things from which I also learned. Those/these experiences are creating a man. Thank You God. My family can now worry less. I can save them from their stress. I must say, I am truly blessed. Me getting away from following, allowed me to do what I loved. Not what was cool. (TO BE CONTINUED)

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